Die In Your Arms- Justin Bieber

Now I know what its like to have your heart truly hurt...
I know I started all this bullshit but come on! I was honest with my feelings at every moment and never left her hanging...
She has me in a giant mind fuck and i can't go out until I spiral out of control...
Shes probably planning this...to fuck me over like she thinks I did...I mean I was wrong and messed this up but I was honest and stressed!
Have finals, graduation, a controlling emotionally abusing ex boyfiend constantly at your throat, your values and sexuality changing and trying to be comfortable with it, all while your parents are bashing on your life...You would have crazy emotions and do irrational things!

And after all that...I still wanna give us a chance....

UGGGGHHHHH

Can't Buy Me Money- The Beatles

   So I spent the past two days with Kevin and I still love him! :) we walked teddy at harkness, made dinner together (totally vegetarian with lots of fresh vegetables! and he liked it!!), twice attempted to watch a scary movie but i got to scared both times, and went and saw the harvard yale regatta with my friend sarah. Today we are going out to breakfast then I have to clean the house a little before I pick up melissa from providence and we are going to play bingo tonight! I wish Kelli were coming!
       I am so happy with my life right now! He is scared that something is going to happen when we both start school. I don't think anything will change other then how often we see each other, but like with what I told Kelli if we see each other less it just makes the time we spend together more meaningful and special!

There She Goes- Sixpence None the Richer

I want my feelings to go away but they can't but I might of screwed myself over with the tumblr post I created yesterday...

Landslide- Fleetwood Mac

Sorry I have been neglecting the blog lately, for one I have been without internet for about three days except at work and I have also been moving and such.  I am currently in temporary residence at my girlfriends until Sunday when the girl occupying my summer room moves out on the 27^th.  This has not been the easiest thing to do because I had to split my belongings up and was not too conscious of how I did that.  So I ended up asking to go to the apartment several times to retrieve some of my belongings.  My stuff is also taking up a good majority of my girlfriends small room. I feel terrible about this.  But it will soon be over and I will move into my permanent summer home and then my apartment for the year!

            So this summer I am basically just working at my two jobs starbucks and my school’s sports center. It’s not a bad deal except I have to pay rent and such buuuut I have already saved up enough money J yay!!! I also just was asked by my old coach if I was interested in a full time job at my school so of course I was like YES! And it’s an admission’s counselor position and I really really hope it works out!!!! That would be AMAZING!!!! So finger’s crossed. 

            This weekend I will also hopefully be going to play BINGO with my sister and a few friends will come. I am getting my work schedule tonight to figure out the final details.  I’m working for another hour at the sports center then we’re having a house warming party tonight with JELLO SHOTS!!! Woot!!!!

- Melissa

I Won't Give Up- Jason Mraz

Things on my mind:

Scarlet Crayons

Scarlet Crayons,

home work hang outs,

playlists,

chipotle,

secret notes.

Long hugs,

Soft kisses,

cuddling,

and bracelets.

Tumblr posts and,

Lady Antebellum,

Just a kiss was a good song.

Sunburns and

aloe,

Boy meets world.

Smiling while kissing,

and holding hands.

Late night meetings,

and getting yelled at by public safety for nothing.

Laughs,

drawings,

stupid youtube videos,

music,

and sleepovers.

And most of all your eyes,

your laugh,

your smile,

your taste,

your hugs,

your stories,

just you.

Nothing is Real- The Goo Goo Dolls

So I always look for signs in life and in songs but even after all the dumb shit I said about chipotle being the only place I went with my ex...I still thought about her the whole time while I was there for dinner and she even texted me while I was there...I don't know if thats a sign or a coincidence but still... It was kinda cool :)
-Kelli

Payphone- Maroon 5

So I'm back at school... but only for 2 weeks :)
I'm here for the NLCEX review then I'll be back at home to study more and take the exam :)
I'll be 22 in 11 days!! I am getting old!! ahhhhhhh..... ugh I hate having to grow up...the second I got my diploma saying I have my bachelor in science i was like...shit just got real... it was scary lol
I really wanna go to the camp for 2 weeks and get away...I had another interview today but I would have to commute and I would live at home but it almost sounds really nice to just get away for 2 months.  I would meet awesome people from Ireland, England, Scotland, Australia, and from the US.  I can really evaluate my life and the decisions I want to make and who i want to be with and who matters most.  Who knows I might meet someone at camp...but it is sounding more and more desirable as time goes on.  Then I'll be home for a week and then I'll be back in Boston in my apartment :)
what to do what to do...
And all I can think about is my ex-girlfriend...I miss her so much... I guess I will have to wait until september 2012 :)

-Kelli

Tongue Tied- Grouplove

This will be a blog post from myself (amanda) and Kelli, because I am currently residing at Kelli's house...

So I have been having an awesome week! I just finished my final!! hopefully I did well and now I can enjoy my summer! It feels so good to be done! of course it wont last long...my grad school starts Aug. 27th. blah. But I am excited for the program! Just not the location. I do however have a house so that is kind of cool.
Also Kevin has been absolutely amazing, he ended up meeting my parents on accident, he didn't leave soon enough soooo it was a "hey parents, wanna meet Kevin?" moment, but it went well. I knew before he even left that they liked him :) He even got me a dozen roses and put them on my car while I was at work.

-Amanda

So I guess its been a while since we have updated...
Things have been kind of hectic with finals, pinning for nursing, graduation, things happening in each other's lives and job offers.
I had pinning on the 17th which is a nice ceremony for nursing students and instead of getting capped like they did a long time ago we get pinned.  Then yesterday I had graduation...it doesn't seem real....I still feel I haven't graduated...I really don't wanna grow up but I guess I have to.
I also had my first job offer to be a camp nurse for 9 week on the Cape.  I mean it will be a super awesome experience and I will learn a lot as well as figure out what I want with life but I don't wanna be away from friends and family for that long... but that is part of growing up. :)
And then I texted my ex-girlfriend because I wanted to figure some things out...I wanted to clear the air and wonder why we didn't even give us a chance...I was selfish and childish with finals and didn't think about her feelings which is something I am trying to work on.  I need to learn to not push the ones I am closest to away...but we came to the agreement of using the summer to figure our lives out and figure our feelings out..she knows exactly how she feels and knows her life situation but I am out in left field with everything which is sooo annoying but that was one of the many things I liked about her...the fact that she always knew what she was doing with her life and how she felt about things...she was on top of her shit... and I'm not...
But she texted me yesterday which made me super happy but I was having a small family party and of course my mother invited my ex boyfriend Mike because he was there for most of college and he is my friend but he saw that my ex girlfriend had texted me and he threw a fucking fit...I don't wanna deal with his issues anymore...which is why I am super excited to go away for 9 weeks but why the hell is he looking at my phone...what gives him the right to do that and first of all who gives him the right to tell me who I can and cannot hang out with...ugh!!  well I hope this summer will be helpful!
I will update again soon :)

-Kelli

We Are Young- Fun

I have officially survived my first full year of graduate school.  Boy were there some bumps in the road such as me dropping down to part time, marginally passing a class, dropping from my placement and feeling like there is no one in the world that wants me to be a social worker.  But I have learned so much too. I learned my limitations and my dreams. I have never had such a desire to be a social worker before, because yeah I kind of picked my career out of the clouds and never put much thought into it but man all I want to do is become one now. Partially because I want to say a big F you to Simmons and an “I told you so!” but also I can not wait to help people! I know I have always wanted to do that…that is no surprise but now I can pretty much hand select the population and environment I want to work in! YES!!

            So it is bittersweet I am done with my first year. I have two more to go and two more placements.   All I can do is hope for the best and pray I enjoy my first year placement at a shelter. I will be spending my summer in beantown working two jobs and volunteering so at least I will be active. I also hope to get some much needed relaxing done. I must admit I am already starting on that J

-Melissa

If Today was your last day- Nickelback

I have had a great weekend so far!! On friday after my class I drove up to boston and Kevin came up with me. He met Kelli and then we went out to dinner at a nice Italian restaurant in the north end and I got us tiramisu from Mike's and we ate it outside in a park. It was so nice! then we met Mel and Kelli at a bar. I really like him a lot!! He has made me smile so much! and he even enjoys sitting with me while I do my homework! I still don't know how Mel feels about him, but she doesnt hate him which is good! I am sure if she sees me more and sees how happy I am she will decide how she feels. I know Kelli is happy I am happy, she has been able to see it more.
       When we were at the bar there were a few guys who came up and started to talk to me, kelli and mel, and Kevin looked pissed. But then I walked away with him and asked him what was up. And he was telling me that it had reminded him of past girlfriends. But he said it was also different because he felt he could trust me. :)
       I also had to say good bye to kelli for two whole weeks!!!!!! i will get to see her again after my final on the 19th and after she graduates on the 18th! I wish I could go up and see her graduate but i can't take the day off work because there are already three people who requested it off.
       I now have to go and survive frappicino happy hour....ugh. help me!!


-Amanda

All of the Lights- Kanye West

I ran into her today and all I wanted to do was hug her and tell her it was going to be ok... I care about her a lot still...I mean we were friends before anything else and i'm never going to stop caring about her... I saw her almost every day so its weird not seeing her... I hope shes ok....
I know she hates me...I don't blame her...i'm sure I ripped her heart out.... But I know I did the right thing...
-Kelli

Memories- David Guetta

Bad news:..... My girlfriend and I broke up...I feel like shit and shouldnt of done that but I did it and now I have to love with it...  I need to figure out myself and not be with anyone.  I had also broken up with my boyfriend 3 weeks before and I rushed into it too quickly...I should of said I wasn't ready but I thought I was.  My ex boyfriend also went on a date with another girl and she met his brothers and it made me feel like I wanted to say "Those are my brothers" I told this to Amanda and we both agreed that I think this opened my eyes.  I need to be single for a while and graduate and move into my apartment and get a job and live life :) I just wish I could be friends with her, we were only together for a month... I hope we can be in the future.

Good News:
DONE WITH NURSING SCHOOL!!!

Now I don't know what to do with myself :) I feel like I have a nursing thing to do or turn in and its weird that I don't for once.... I mean I still have an English final on Saturday but its for a pass/fail class so I'm not worried.

WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
I also can't wait for Amanda to get here on Friday :)

Now to catch up on Boy Meets World :)

-Kelli