Won't Stop- One Republic

So since I am taking a break from my girlfriend right now I am trying to enjoy my independence and meet new people. It is working to an extent but I still feel kind of alone some of the time. I've met several people some but mostly I think they will be friends though there is this girl who I have hung out with three times and all three times end up in make out sessions...but she's probably leaving the country in October...she is a rocket scientist after all. Anyway I still don't know what I am doing with my life...I don't think I have figured much out except that it's friggin hard to meet people. Oh also that my mother is still not pleased with my life choices and thinks I am going to start dating crazy people..I don't know what will make her happy...I know she worries but she should really trust me I am almost 24 with half a master's degree in social work (you know working with crazy people) I would think she could trust me to figure out that I can judge people. Oh well. At least my goal of getting out of the Simmons Crew circle is working :P I just don't know what I am looking for... it's so weird... and that's what's happening in my life :P

-Mel

Wanted- Hunter Hayes

I've been debating the idea of the reason why I like girls over the past few weeks and I've been wondering if I like girls because I actually like them or because of my bad experience with guys. But ever since I met my girlfriend I've realized it's a lot more than just that idea. She's made me realize that I do like girls but it's much more than that. The feelings I have when I'm with her are incredible, and I feel like nothing else matters. I can't find anything wrong with her and that scares me because no one is perfect but she is... As you can see I'm falling and I'm falling hard. Except every time I think I'm done falling I keep going and it amazes me every time. I've wanted to tell her that I love her but I'm afraid to.... I know it's super early in the relationship but the feelings I have are so strong and I can't explain it except for that fact that I love her.... I want to spend every moment I have with her and when I'm not with her, in trying to figure out how to get to her.

We also went out to dinner with her parents last night and I was so jealous. Her parents love her for her and they don't care who she is with as long as she is happy. Ever since my parents found out, they have been awful to me. I want them to like her and be ok with it and give her a chance. Otherwise they are going to lose their daughter and only child because I'm not changing for them because I want to be happy.

This past weekend was fun :) my friends and girlfriends' friends all ran in the color run which was sooo much fun! It was a 5k and every kilometer was a different color that was thrown at you which was a lot of fun and Amanda and I were able to run the whole thing! At the end they had color throw parties and it was insane! We were completely colored! Then Amanda and my girlfriend went out and we got suppppper drunk lol but that's a different story... Just no more scorpion bowls for a while.

I'm also really worried about Amanda. Kevin is being a complete asshole and I want to punch him in the face. What is this whole faithful shit he's saying. She needs to talk to him to figure it out otherwise she is going to be controlled by him and end like the situation I had with mike. Amanda can do so much better anyways. Kevin is so dumb, does he realize he's going to lose the best girl out there?! She's nice, sweet, honest, innocent, beautiful, and knows what she wants in life... Not too many people are like that.

This week I'm babysitting and trying to earn money while searching for a job and then also trying to figure out when I'll see my girlfriend again. And Mel might come over to search through my house for apartment stuff.

I wanna wrap you up, I Wanna kiss your lips, I wanna make you feel wanted, I wanna call you mine and hold your hand forever, and never let you forget it, cuz baby I want to make you feel wanted.

More to come another time :)

-Kelli

Good Time- Carly Rae Jepson and Owl City

Okay so I know I have not written in a while. But my summer has not been nearly as eventful as mel's or kelli's. Except on Saturday I went to a giant field of sunflowers!! it was amazing! And then my boyfriend took me to a really pretty place and we just sat together, which was nice because we hadn't had much time alone for a while. I also won $100 in bingo. Today I saw a friend who I hadn't seen in a long time and tomorrow I have a date with my boyfriend planned. All of this is kinda boring... BUT i am soooooo exceited because Kelli came back from camp and Saturday is the Color Run!!!! Which means Me, Kelli, and Mel will all be running in a the most colorful race ever! I am heading up friday after work and staying with Kelli and her girlfriend, getting covered in paint, then going out that night for the first time in a Loooooooooong time! :D I can't wait!

-Amanda

Everybody Talks- Neon Trees

So Update on my life lately. I have tried three times to break up with my girlfriend and it is not really working :(. I had promised her that I would go to new jersey to see her family this weekend so that is what I am doing right now :P I tried many times to get out of it but she spent Over $200 on my tickets so I feel bad :( I didn't leave with her yesterday though instead I asked if I could leave today so I would be with her less. It's just hard cause I feel so guilty all the time :( I talked with my therapist and she says that of course I will Nd its also me being angry coming out as guilt.

So I have been trying to go out and meet new people And luckily I have been successful for the most part. I have been on several dates :) a few were successful others not so much. I met one girl at Starbucks when I was working, she came in once while I was working/ giving away samples are we were talking and I was goin to meet up with her after I got out of work but ended up missing her. She mentioned that she would come in and find out when I'm working lol so I was like yay! Then she came in again on Saturday And I got her number!! I was so excited and super glad my supervisor didn't get mad at me in fact I got huge fives all around (joys or working with all guys). So I went out with her Wednesday night and thought she was going to bail on me because she  was first complaining about the weather, than pushed the time back... But she came and she suggested a movie so we went to the movie thearter, but had to wait like 45 mins cause it wasn't playing till later so we went to longhorne and got drinks And talked then saw the movie. It was super good and we decided we were def going to see each other again and this time do dinner too. Now I have to play the waiting game to hear from her... Blah

So the other night I was hanging out with my friend Rebecca whom I hadn't seen for a while and we went out for sushi. We then decided to get gelato then we were walking around. Sometime we decided that we needed to go to a bar so rebecca was wearing workout shorts do we walked back to her apt on beacon hill for her to change. We went to a place near her apt and the left. There was this club called gypsy And we somehow got in without paying a cover charge and without waiting in line... So we were already nice and tipsy and this club was insane... Like super big and super nice!! Anyway I ended up dancing with this girl from MIT who graduated and is now a rocket scientist... Crazy!! Needless to say we had fun... Rebecca and I left around 2am and I got this girls number :P so Sunday i was with another friend going to Sowa a Market in the south end And ended up making plans with the MIT chick for after.  My friend stayed with me till we met up to make sure this person was legit since I was not sober at the time. And she was we went to a bakery/cafe place and then walked aroundz. She was also nice.

So that's what I have been up to :) Monday I'm having an sbux party with all three of my female co workers and we're having kahlua!! :) that's all for now

-Me

Long Hot Summer- Keith Urban

SO its been a week since me and my girlfriend have officially been together! I even ended up asking her myself, while cuddling in my bed underneath my glow in the dark stars and talking about how happy she makes me :)I like her so much! She gives me feelings I've never had before! I love how i feel when I am around her, like i could less what anyone else thinks and its great! All of my friends have met her and think shes awesome!
I am also now at camp as a camp nurse which can be super overwhelming but I am getting used to it :) Being with kids all day long is fun but at night I am so exhausted and want to be away from them lol and I get 24hours off a week and will spend it with my girlfriend more than likely especially because I won't be able to see her much otherwise.  I am also trying to figure out a way she could volunteer here once a week and help me with paperwork. We shall see :)
I miss home life a lot and being around my friends but this is only for 6 weeks and then ill be in Boston with Mel and close to my girlfriend and hopfully have a job :)

Ill write soon :)

-Kelli

Floorplan- Tegan and Sara

So these past couple of weeks have been a crazy whirlwind of everything and every emotion possible! I left to go home last weekend and my girlfriend and I had a fight while I was leaving. She was being clingy and controlling and i was not a fan at all. I was so sick of it. So on my train ride home I receive a text that says I should not contact her till Tuesday and I need to think about stuff. So I was upset for the rest of the ride home then when my sister picked me up we decided I really needed this time so I should enjoy it. I did, and when I went back on Tuesday night because I had t go to Dana Farber on Wednesday she presented me with a power point which kind of made me upset, but I also had a list and we talked. I decided I still wanted my space and needed to think and figure out my life before I can be with her. So I am still on a break and am trying to go out and meet new people and make new friends. It's really a good thing for me and I am glad I finally did it. I just haven't been super happy lately...probably because I feel guilty about putting her through this. it's hard when I receive phone calls with her crying saying she so lonely and I'm hanging out with people and having fun. I hope everything will work out though, I hope I realize what I need to make me happy. I also am going to miss Kelli this summer!! and I still miss my sister, but again more time for me to make new friends!! it's what I need!!! and I am trying to make this summer about me!

Mel

Born this way- Lady Gaga

So these past two weeks have been amazing!! I met an amazing girl who went to the same college as me and knows my best friends!! Our first date was Tuesday June 19th and it was the best first date I have ever been on. Then I can to Boston last Thursday and stayed with her and we went to the beach , bought fireworks, went to castle island, saw rainbows, fireworks, and even lightning. I'm the happiest I have ever been when im with her and it feels great! I'm going to camp for a month though and I won't be able to see her that much which is kinda awful... But i like her soo much! I wish she would ask me to be her girlfriend and make it official... I think she's scared of that because I'm going away soon... But I wanna be with her! I feel so close to her and comfortable already which is scary but when I'm with her I feel like I can't get close enough.... I can be myself around he r and not be scared that I'll get yelled at or have to explain my every action... I was going to ask her to be my girlfriend last night but I chickened out... I'm afraid of being rejected...

I'm also really upset for Mel... She isn't herself lately because she's on a break with her girlfriend to figure out her life but she still doesn't know what to do... I've been in her shoes before and it sucks but sometimes you have to do these things now before it becomes a problem in the future. You also can't change a person... They have to want to change... I really hope she figure it out because she's my friend and I hate seeing her miserable... I want happy Mel again!!

I also miss my best friend... I haven't seen Amanda in forever and she's the only person I can go crazy with!!! I'm having withdrawals!! Amanda!!!!

-Kelli

Someone like you-Adele

So I just came back from being on vacation for a week! The first two days were blah because the weather stunk. It was cold and rainy. But the last two days were beautiful! I spent the entire two days on the beach. Barely did any of my summer reading... Oh well. Thursday Mel and I celebrated fathers day and got lobsters they were yummy! Friday we went to Ogunquit and met up with Kelli and her friend. It was so much fun! especially because we got to ride in her friend's jeep wrangler to the beach without a roof!
We had to end our vacation early so we could go to the our family picnic...I brought Kevin, the poor guy was introduced to like my entire family full force. But we went tubing and on the jet ski so I hope that helped a little! Mel invited her girlfriend to come to the family picnic too...but as a friend so she wouldnt feel alone. I kind of felt bad for both of them. Because it was clear mel just wanted a friend, but she wasnt being very friendly to her and I felt bad because mel thought she was doing everything wrong and audrey felt left out.
Anyway i had a talk with them and then they had a talk...who knows how it turned out...but I hope they are both happy! Thats all I want....Is for everyone to be happy.

-Amanda