so I have done it again....
Why am I addicted to being in a relationship...
I met this awesome girl online and we have so much in common....we have talked and texted everyday until today.... I have this deep gut feeling from the wall around my heart that something bad is going to happen and that I shouldn't get excited or get wrapped in something where I can see myself getting hurt...
We have so much in common though...she likes to be active, we both have a believe tattoo, both love justin bieber and country music, we both hate the color orange, we have music videos with our best friend and she is actually the same height as me....shes also super funny and always keeps me on my toes...
I am going to see her next weekend but I don't want to get excited because what if she decides to ditch.... I mean we have no commitment whatsoever....at this point we are just friends...like she could be talking to like 15 different girls right now and having sex with who knows who and here I am over-thinking as always....
She left me a drunk voicemail last night which was super cute and funny and we texted this morning and then nothing at all and then she called me and said she had to call her mom and would call me right back but then she never did...not even a text....I am definitely over-thinking but still....
I also saw my best friend this weekend which was awesome! I miss her so much....I feel so alone without her here....I have mel and all but shes always busy with other people....I graduated and people are all over the place and I fell like such a loser sometimes with no friends....o well....
At least I have my job to keep me sane :)
Thats all for now...
-Kelli
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Don't Wake Me Up- Chris Brown
So last week was my second week of work and it went really well :) Except on thursday I started to get sick and have been ever since :( just a really bad cold
I still have occasonal dreams about natalie and it just makes me so mad....I am going to be super guarded from now on...I mean the first couple month of any relationship are the best but now I know her true colors... I liked her so much and I even loved her.... and I was crushed... but I am over the being sad part, now I am just mad...
I met a girl yesterday though! She is so much like me...its kinda creepy actually...
we both have a believe tattoo, we both love Justin Bieber and country music, we both hate the color orange, we both love dark chocolate and hate milk chocolate, we both love converse and plaid flannels, she has random dance parties and her best friend and her made a call me maybe video! its so crazy! I hope I can hang out with her soon :) shes pretty awesome :)
And I miss Amanda so much :(
Thats all for now :)
Peace, Love, Music
-Kelli
I still have occasonal dreams about natalie and it just makes me so mad....I am going to be super guarded from now on...I mean the first couple month of any relationship are the best but now I know her true colors... I liked her so much and I even loved her.... and I was crushed... but I am over the being sad part, now I am just mad...
I met a girl yesterday though! She is so much like me...its kinda creepy actually...
we both have a believe tattoo, we both love Justin Bieber and country music, we both hate the color orange, we both love dark chocolate and hate milk chocolate, we both love converse and plaid flannels, she has random dance parties and her best friend and her made a call me maybe video! its so crazy! I hope I can hang out with her soon :) shes pretty awesome :)
And I miss Amanda so much :(
Thats all for now :)
Peace, Love, Music
-Kelli
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Defying Gravity- Wicked
So I have officially been in grad school for a month. So far I have had two quizzes in anatomy and kinesiology, four quizzes and a midterm in neuroanatomy, three papers and two presentations in pathology, a paper and a presentation in intro to ot, a paper in therapeutic use of self and then next week I have another midterm, another paper, and two presentations! whoohoo. But despite all this work I am actually enjoying learning this stuff. And I am doing fairly well, I got a 95 on one paper, and a 94 on the midterm. :)
I really miss kelli and melissa!! My roommates are very nice, but they are not my best friends and they often complain about how they hate connecticut and hate sacred heart, it was not my first choice either but i never go as far as hating it because then I will just always feel miserable. I am also from connecticut...and I mean its not my favorite place, certainly this area is totally different then where I am from, but they just generalize to the whole state and it kinda hurts my feelings. I also feel left out because I cant study with them, we are studying two different things and I feel like if I ask them to listen to my presentation I am taking time away from something they could be studying... But I did ask them to listen to my presentation and they did listen and I did do a spinal curve assessment on Julie and she was totally cool with it.
But like I said they are nice and good friends. We have gone out together and had fun. We made a tee shirt for Nigel, our resident skeleton, and had just dance parties together.
Okay well now I just have to go study...
I really miss kelli and melissa!! My roommates are very nice, but they are not my best friends and they often complain about how they hate connecticut and hate sacred heart, it was not my first choice either but i never go as far as hating it because then I will just always feel miserable. I am also from connecticut...and I mean its not my favorite place, certainly this area is totally different then where I am from, but they just generalize to the whole state and it kinda hurts my feelings. I also feel left out because I cant study with them, we are studying two different things and I feel like if I ask them to listen to my presentation I am taking time away from something they could be studying... But I did ask them to listen to my presentation and they did listen and I did do a spinal curve assessment on Julie and she was totally cool with it.
But like I said they are nice and good friends. We have gone out together and had fun. We made a tee shirt for Nigel, our resident skeleton, and had just dance parties together.
Okay well now I just have to go study...
Saturday, September 15, 2012
Basket Case- Green Day
From Amanda a super long time ago and I forgot to post it...SORRY!!
These past two weeks have been insane. I moved to a new house with three girls I have never met before (well i met one briefly for a few hours). I also started graduate school.
Okay so first things first. my new living situation. I live with three girls, Ashly who is from Philly. She is awesome! we get along great. In some ways she reminds me of Kelli, but obviously is not kelli. Julie is from Utah, she is also awesome! both of them are super nice and the three of us get along well. Heather is our fourth roommate. she is nice, but she is a little more reserved then the three of us. The house is fun. I love my new room. I just am not a fan of connecticut...not much to do and you have to drive everywhere. plus everything is expensive and I dont get student loan money until the middle of september.
Grad school is hard! like really really hard! like take the most stressful time in college and that is every single week in grad school!! I have not done much for fun because every free moment is spent trying to catch up. Right away i was assigned a presentation that was due later that week, and it was not a simple presentation it was a 20 minute presentation on the stages of cellular healing in connective, bone, nerve and muscle tissue. I am excited to become an OT but it is not going to be easy.
In other news kevin asked me out on a date...I feel like i need to give him a second chance, because he sent me flowers (well they were actually from before he broke up with me) and a box of chocolate covered strawberries. He has been trying his best to show me he is trying to change, so i feel like i should at least give him a chance. we will see. its just a date. I plan on hanging with my roommates later that night.
Okay so first things first. my new living situation. I live with three girls, Ashly who is from Philly. She is awesome! we get along great. In some ways she reminds me of Kelli, but obviously is not kelli. Julie is from Utah, she is also awesome! both of them are super nice and the three of us get along well. Heather is our fourth roommate. she is nice, but she is a little more reserved then the three of us. The house is fun. I love my new room. I just am not a fan of connecticut...not much to do and you have to drive everywhere. plus everything is expensive and I dont get student loan money until the middle of september.
Grad school is hard! like really really hard! like take the most stressful time in college and that is every single week in grad school!! I have not done much for fun because every free moment is spent trying to catch up. Right away i was assigned a presentation that was due later that week, and it was not a simple presentation it was a 20 minute presentation on the stages of cellular healing in connective, bone, nerve and muscle tissue. I am excited to become an OT but it is not going to be easy.
In other news kevin asked me out on a date...I feel like i need to give him a second chance, because he sent me flowers (well they were actually from before he broke up with me) and a box of chocolate covered strawberries. He has been trying his best to show me he is trying to change, so i feel like i should at least give him a chance. we will see. its just a date. I plan on hanging with my roommates later that night.
-Amanda
Dancing in a Burning Room- John Mayer
So I feel like I should star in my own L word... starring Mel. First of all, I moved into my new apartment with the help of friend and now my ex girlfriend and everything was fine. I went to a concert with her and her parents and had a great time. The next day she didn't wanna hang out while I waited for Mel's furniture and she wanted to hang out with her room mate which was fine. So a couple hours later she says she is going to come get me later and then 30 minutes later she says her room mate reminded her of things that happened in a past relationship which made her think and then she found out her ex left her for a 40 year old man and then got an email from her ex so she couldnt see me. SO I met up and we talked and we agreed that we needed a couple days of space but within a day I knew I wanted to be with her and she was going to come over until 60 minutes before she decided she couldnt and needed more space. SO I gave her the space and she came over last sunday and broke my heart. Basically said she didn't care about me and didn't feel butterflies or rainbows and has been having doubts for the past 2 weeks. Like what the fuck. Thanks for tearing my heart out, frying it, and dancing on it and throwing it back it. I was miserable for the first couple of days. The things with a broken heart is that you can't make it go away, only time makes it go away which sucks.
So I went on okcupid to try to get over her and I talked to a few girls and then Mel found her on there. Like seriously?! over me that fast??? In 5 fucking days! whatever...I do want to be friends with her and I hope I am able to do that.
All week long I just concentrated on my new job and getting into that and I talked to a couple girls...one with really poufy hair and i'm not into that and the other girl was super cool but had court on Friday which is kind of scary lol but she is super nice. Then I talked to this other girl and giving my number was mistake because she called and wouldn't get off until I lied about my room mate needing help and then I deleted her because she was stalkerish and I woke up to a text this morning saying that I was a cunt...and I just laughed. I mean I only wants friends right now anyways but I've come to the conclusion that girls are fucking crazy!
I also met up with me ex girlfriend from last school year and it was really nice, I had a really good time, I missed her :)
Maybe I could be Shane from the L word...except I am super girly and don't sleep around...hmmm maybe I am more of an alice.
And lastly, I get an email from my ex this afternoon saying she really wants to be friends and of course I do too and I'll give it a try, I just don't know when or if I will be able to see her and not feel anything...I hope I can :)
-Kelli
I also met up with me ex girlfriend from last school year and it was really nice, I had a really good time, I missed her :)
Maybe I could be Shane from the L word...except I am super girly and don't sleep around...hmmm maybe I am more of an alice.
And lastly, I get an email from my ex this afternoon saying she really wants to be friends and of course I do too and I'll give it a try, I just don't know when or if I will be able to see her and not feel anything...I hope I can :)
-Kelli
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