so I have done it again....
Why am I addicted to being in a relationship...
I met this awesome girl online and we have so much in common....we have talked and texted everyday until today.... I have this deep gut feeling from the wall around my heart that something bad is going to happen and that I shouldn't get excited or get wrapped in something where I can see myself getting hurt...
We have so much in common though...she likes to be active, we both have a believe tattoo, both love justin bieber and country music, we both hate the color orange, we have music videos with our best friend and she is actually the same height as me....shes also super funny and always keeps me on my toes...
I am going to see her next weekend but I don't want to get excited because what if she decides to ditch.... I mean we have no commitment whatsoever....at this point we are just friends...like she could be talking to like 15 different girls right now and having sex with who knows who and here I am over-thinking as always....
She left me a drunk voicemail last night which was super cute and funny and we texted this morning and then nothing at all and then she called me and said she had to call her mom and would call me right back but then she never did...not even a text....I am definitely over-thinking but still....
I also saw my best friend this weekend which was awesome! I miss her so much....I feel so alone without her here....I have mel and all but shes always busy with other people....I graduated and people are all over the place and I fell like such a loser sometimes with no friends....o well....
At least I have my job to keep me sane :)
Thats all for now...
-Kelli
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