So these past couple of weeks have been a crazy whirlwind of everything and every emotion possible! I left to go home last weekend and my girlfriend and I had a fight while I was leaving. She was being clingy and controlling and i was not a fan at all. I was so sick of it. So on my train ride home I receive a text that says I should not contact her till Tuesday and I need to think about stuff. So I was upset for the rest of the ride home then when my sister picked me up we decided I really needed this time so I should enjoy it. I did, and when I went back on Tuesday night because I had t go to Dana Farber on Wednesday she presented me with a power point which kind of made me upset, but I also had a list and we talked. I decided I still wanted my space and needed to think and figure out my life before I can be with her. So I am still on a break and am trying to go out and meet new people and make new friends. It's really a good thing for me and I am glad I finally did it. I just haven't been super happy lately...probably because I feel guilty about putting her through this. it's hard when I receive phone calls with her crying saying she so lonely and I'm hanging out with people and having fun. I hope everything will work out though, I hope I realize what I need to make me happy. I also am going to miss Kelli this summer!! and I still miss my sister, but again more time for me to make new friends!! it's what I need!!! and I am trying to make this summer about me!
Mel
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