So my friend Jason had texted me last week telling me that he was having a bad week but he didn't want to talk about it. So obviously I responded with a "well I hope it gets better and Im always here to listen if you need to talk." well, last night at midnight he decided he wanted to talk. He basically poured everything out in an email he wrote to me. A top secret (mind you) email that I am not allowed to tell anyone because he has never told anyone this stuff and will deny it if someone actually asks.
So the first part of the email I can totally see how devastated he was, because he just found out that he will not be able to work full time for the coast guard when he graduates. (he has been working for them and is currently on reserve while attending school) Jason loves working for the CG and all he would talk about is how he couldn't wait to graduate so he could work there full time and not have to worry about school. So he took this news very very hard. I feel like I can totally relate because i didnt get into the grad school i had been planning and hoping for and had to settle for something that I was not expecting or looking for.
Before I go on to the next part a little history about me and Jason, we are friends, good friends. But we became friends because he was actually dating one of my other friends. I met him after they broke up. It was a bad break up. A very bad break up. My friend (not jason) did not and still does not want anything to do with jason, ever. sooo we became friends under weird circumstances... another thing about Jason, I used to like him a lot. we've had several nights where both of us got drunk and things went too far, but we still remain friends. I know he does not like me the way I like him. He just sees me as a friend, and I am happy we are friends. I actually thought i stopped liking him, but the next part of his email kinda showed me otherwise....
so Jason's other part of his email, paraphrased with details left out (that is still top secret) basically said that after he and my other friend broke up he briefly dated this other girl, samantha. He was in a bad place so the relationship never went anywhere. But now he wants to start dating again. He keeps thinking about samantha, they have been keeping in touch, and he still has feelings for her. The dilemma is that she is going to vet school in the fall, in VA. So my buddy Jason is seriously considering moving to VA just so he can be with her....
Anyway thats as much as i am going to say. but basically I did my best to give him the best advice i could. I dont want him to mess up his future because he is upset about not being able to land his dream job right away. I am seriously worried he is going to go. :(
-Amanda
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