I wrote this entry yesterday April 3rd 2012.
Today is drama and bad news filled. Two weeks ago I got a mole removed on my leg
that was a potential problem and after
it was removed they told me I didn’t have to worry unless they called. So I didn’t get a call at all and then today
when I got my stitches they were like “uhh your results are concerning and I
think we need to take more of a margin around the area to tests the cells again
and for that you need to see a surgical oncologist.” WHAT THE FUCK?! Surgical
oncologist….. the only words that go through my head are
oncologist….oncologist….cancer….and she keeps talking and I keep thinking I
thought I would be ok….then a random e-mail comes and says have her wait and
have her come back in 4 months. I want
to say that’s a good thing but wait 4 months….what if it’s something more…. I
need to get a second opinion…. Well if Mike wasn’t good for anything besides helping
me figure out what I want in life…he was the one who made me get this taken
care of because I wasn’t going to go…well I’m glad I did because the cells were
malignant but hopefully its gone now….
And then drama happened over the weekend….
Friday night my best friend came to Boston like she always
does and we were going to hang out but then she randomly decided to go to Jason’s
for dinner and Mel went with her girlfriend
and my girlfriend was with her friends and for a little while I felt
like a loser with no friends and then Mel came back… and then Amanda and then I
was ok but I haven’t cried like that for a while….
Then Saturday came around and I made plans with Mel and my
girlfriend to make rainbow cupcakes which came out awesome and Mel’s girlfriend
was supposed to go dye Easter eggs with the crew team but decided not to. And instead of coming to make cupcakes with
us she complained…. She didn’t like the crowd we were hanging out with and
feels intimidated by my girlfriend..who is the sweetest person I Know! And now everything with Mel’s girlfriend is
super awkward….ughhhhh
But other than that my life is going great…I graduate in
almost a month and I am one college exam away from my nursing degree and then I
take the NCLEX :)
And I have the most amazing girlfriend… I have been friends
with her since last year…from nutrition class… I started talking to her near
the end of the class when we were studying for finals and I thought I liked her
but then we went on summer break and we kind of lost touch and just talked
every once in a while. Then last
semester we talked about random drama with other girls and friends and then
this semester I started looking at her differently and having sudden urges to
kiss her and be with her. So we’ve been
seeing each other/dating for the past month and last week she asked to be my
girlfriend J I
think about her all day and almost every song I listen to I think of her. She super nice and funny and I feel so
comfortable around her. I just hope she
isn’t embarrassed by me because she won’t bring me around her friends…or her
friends have no interest… I introduced her to my friends and they like her a
lot :)
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